freakin wiiiirrdd
 POSTED AT 05:33 AM

stoic_moonstone

i still have this!!???!!

 its been a gadawful.. wat.... 3 years????

 so sorry to take up space in the www. but il definitely try to update this soon!

 

 

 Feeling: weird
 

~~~ And you've never met anyone as everything as I am sometimes

tired
 POSTED AT 05:52 PM

stoic_moonstone

I'm feeling it.

~~~

Listen by Stonefree... 

Close the door
I feel a breeze hold me please
I hate to be alone
It’s a cold night, turn off the light
Come take my hand and…

Listen
to these things I have to say
please understand
she left me, all alone again

Clear the room
Of every memory
I don’t want that song back on
It’s an endless maze
Take away this haze
Please mend my heart and…

Listen
to these things I have to say
please understand
she left me, all alone again

Listen
to these things I have to say
please understand
she left me, all alone again

Turn away
Don’t want you to see me cry
I just want things the way they were
It’s so hard to say goodbye
Wipe my tears and…

Listen
to these things I have to say
please understand
she left me, all alone again

This I ask of you
Please stay with me
Until she comes back

 

 

 Feeling: pensive
 

~~~ And you've never met anyone as everything as I am sometimes

Return of the Jedi
 POSTED AT 09:20 PM

stoic_moonstone

~~

You get home from work... turn on your pc.. go online

your Nth ex is online and while checkin your mail...

voila! out of all the people and things you could think of..

you thought of..

the one that you LET get away..

that one person who was your total likeness..

everything about him was wonderful..
without exaggerating
everything really was. IS.

we were soulmates.

we found each other in the most unlikely place. yet we were there at the right time. and saw each other at the right moment.
he loves Incubus, as much as i,
he's close to ecstatic on debates and philosophy;
he's a chain smoker, hard drinker;
he doesn't follow trends;
he loves hanging at coffee shops just to pump caffeine, talk and smoke until the wee hours of dawn
we'd be in deep deep intellectual conversation and debate every time.

we'd talk about EVERYTHING, literally everything under the sun.. and never was there a day that we let pass without calling, texting or emailing each other.
when a thought or idea or philosophy gets conjured in our heads..
we would right away tell each other.. by any means.

to my surprise, couple of times he even went to my school.. just to see me..
for lunch. he lives too far away from there. pasig <--> taft..

one time he went to my friends house in qc where i was sleeping over.. at 12 mn.. just so we could talk..

we'd email each other if not every day, every other day
messages seconds apart.. if we're not too busy..
phone calls.. almost every night.

you look into his eyes.. and your lost..
i hear garth brooks.. (when he was chris gaines..)
singing lost in you...
his smile..
his expression..

then he talks..
if you're one for intelligence as well..
you'd be fascinated

then he plays the guitar and percussions..

then he writes you letters.. through email of course.. but letters..

it drove me nuts for a while

he was.. the cliche.
Right place. Right time. Right guy.

my #1 favorite line from him: "i wanna get high with you.." ~~ with which after 5 secs of silence.. i laughed and remarked, "really now"

my second favorite line: "Now do you see your importance… do you see the role that you play… do you see… that with you I can be totally ‘me’." ~~ which left me.. totally speechless

some might connote "bola"
but if u know me.. i can sense "bola" a thousand miles away.
i don't get easily fazed by or give in to good looks and pure charm. Kilig was never a major factor.

my ex used to tell me, i have barricades around with a 7 foot deep trap for any guy
when they think they're close enough; they fall in to the bottomless pit..
left to rot.
my ex was psycho. i shrugged it off, but another guy did tell me the same thing.. so i guess.. u know..
do the math.
 
ANYWAY.
back to HIM

my definition: he was dangerous.

this was..
in my little black book...
highlighted and in big bold letters.. the kind of guy to steer clear away from.
which i did.. gradually..
and you can just imagine, how extremely difficult that was for me..

he was perfect.
if i had set standards for the perfect guy.
it would be him.
it was insane.
this perfection meant..
i wouldn't be able to drop him like a hot potato
like the others.. *that's my pride there.
it would be.. long long long term. *my fear of commitment there
shallow?.. no..
for a person who's had.. wat? i lost count.
how many relationships..
and never dumped.
i foresaw that..
that he could be
my first real heartbreak.

I'm like that.
i foresee things.
especially in my relationships
huge instincts used you know

i thought to myself.
i'm sure we'd be better friends than lovers..
we'll last longer that way... or something to that effect

we last had contact january this yr... a couple of weeks after my bday.. that was it.

he got busy with digifilms on writing & filming and his two bands..
those were things i strongly encouraged him to keep doing..
so there..

don't misconstrue the tone as regret of some sort..
i just had this sudden surge of emotion..

missing the guy.

the reason??

...search me.

 

 

Listening to: Broken Hearted - Brandy & Boyz II Men
 Feeling: sore
 

~~~ And you've never met anyone as everything as I am sometimes

WINTER ends
 POSTED AT 07:29 PM

stoic_moonstone

eerie how the past always finds its way back. its either you dug it up or u accidentally were reminded. i have one song. for my past. its been.. what.. almost 3 years since i last remembered you. you found ur way back, as uv always always done.. or did i this time find you? well guess what. finally winter ends.

GOODBYE my Lover -- James Blunt

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.(x2)

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.(x2)

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.(x2)

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.(x2)

goodbye. for the last time.

 

 

Listening to: Eternity - Robbie Williams
 Feeling: blank
 

~~~ And you've never met anyone as everything as I am sometimes

my best friend made this....
 POSTED AT 07:25 AM

stoic_moonstone

 

 

 Feeling: nostalgic
 

~~~ And you've never met anyone as everything as I am sometimes

Test galore
 POSTED AT 03:50 AM

stoic_moonstone

 

 

 

~~~ And you've never met anyone as everything as I am sometimes

Wachasay?

ever after
 POSTED AT 08:02 AM

stoic_moonstone

y'all looking for ye olde ever after lyrics

here you go.

Ever After -- Bonnie Bailey

Three years ago my journey began
Chasing down this cure, no plan in hand
Just your pulse, my racing guide in the dark
Just knowing with conviction from the start
The moment your eyes made an introduction
I felt my second violent breath of life
Flawless to the point of being godly
Yet I fell hard for your imperfections

And now we’re slightly weathered, we’re slightly worn
Our hands grip together eye to eye through the storm yet
I still believe in ever after with you
Coz life is a pleasure with you by my side
And there ain’t no current in this river we can’t ride
I still believe in ever after with you

Nothing compares to the good times
Feels like we’re floating when the rest have to climb
You made me believe in love and not the perfect kind
A real messy beautiful twisted sunshine
Emotions volcanic eruptions
We both still care so we’re still alive
Tunnel vision, determination
I want you I want to make it right

You are my twisted sunshine

 

 

Listening to: out of reach - gabrielle
 

~~~ And you've never met anyone as everything as I am sometimes

Wachasay?